Darkness seems so sincere
a hole to delve into
when you want to forget
to edge the thought or reason aside
knowing that the only
reply given is of demise
Think better thoughts
then they disappear
mind playing tricks on your dreams
your wants no longer your need
survival of the clearer mind
you strive for
forcing yourself to repress
the memories and heartaches
the wondering of what if
will always linger
no matter how bad you try
to fight the dwelling need
never find contentness in yourself
always thoughts
lurking overhead
silently awaking you
to things you tried to hide
tie them away in your past
never to repeat once again
gaping hole in your head
right between your eyes
the place where the headaches begin
then seep into every part
of your eternal being
wonder if you did things differently
but they are only
what ifs
and life will go on
not the way you want
it never works that way
gives you twists and turns
you never want to take
the ones you say you will
never take again
the ones that you always
are directed to
the leading to nowhere
nowhere sacred or beholding
of what you long to find
what you feel you
live to find
nothing of the sort
just the damn what ifs
your mind makes you think
SEP
November 23, 2002
~Poetry does not necessarily have to be beautiful
to stick in the depths of our memory~
~Colette~
a hole to delve into
when you want to forget
to edge the thought or reason aside
knowing that the only
reply given is of demise
Think better thoughts
then they disappear
mind playing tricks on your dreams
your wants no longer your need
survival of the clearer mind
you strive for
forcing yourself to repress
the memories and heartaches
the wondering of what if
will always linger
no matter how bad you try
to fight the dwelling need
never find contentness in yourself
always thoughts
lurking overhead
silently awaking you
to things you tried to hide
tie them away in your past
never to repeat once again
gaping hole in your head
right between your eyes
the place where the headaches begin
then seep into every part
of your eternal being
wonder if you did things differently
but they are only
what ifs
and life will go on
not the way you want
it never works that way
gives you twists and turns
you never want to take
the ones you say you will
never take again
the ones that you always
are directed to
the leading to nowhere
nowhere sacred or beholding
of what you long to find
what you feel you
live to find
nothing of the sort
just the damn what ifs
your mind makes you think
SEP
November 23, 2002

~Poetry does not necessarily have to be beautiful
to stick in the depths of our memory~
~Colette~


