The challenge of the day;
Face an overwhelming life
and find a way to create order
in my chaotic mind,
believe I am not trite
and overworked
like the pair of pantyhose
draped over the towel rack
in the messy bathroom.
There are spaces and blank spots
in the gray matter,
things I just dont remember
like how I got home after the party
or what I said to whom;
tis another morning after
hung over the toilet bowl
self- poisoned with indulgence
disgustedly consumed with dry heaves
and tongue parched, cotton-thick,
a god-awful headache splitting my brain;
a person temporarily insane.
When this all passes
will I still depend
on my disguise
and make believe confidence,
be the life of the party
with a drink in my hand?
Perhaps Ill understand;
perceive the idiosyncrasies
of this weakness
grasp the lesson Im meant to learn
before its too late.
Face an overwhelming life
and find a way to create order
in my chaotic mind,
believe I am not trite
and overworked
like the pair of pantyhose
draped over the towel rack
in the messy bathroom.
There are spaces and blank spots
in the gray matter,
things I just dont remember
like how I got home after the party
or what I said to whom;
tis another morning after
hung over the toilet bowl
self- poisoned with indulgence
disgustedly consumed with dry heaves
and tongue parched, cotton-thick,
a god-awful headache splitting my brain;
a person temporarily insane.
When this all passes
will I still depend
on my disguise
and make believe confidence,
be the life of the party
with a drink in my hand?
Perhaps Ill understand;
perceive the idiosyncrasies
of this weakness
grasp the lesson Im meant to learn
before its too late.


Ness