I won't forget the afternoon
my sister told me,
"He committed suicide,
he shot himself."
But he was so young,
what could I have done?
paid more attention,
been more loving,
why didn't I see?
The signs were there.
I was too busy
living my life
ignoring the problem
pretending it would
go away
if I just ignored it.
What went through
your mind
at that last moment
of explosion?
Were you relieved
and glad to be
released
or was your last thought
"My God
what have I done?"
Dear God
I felt the wound myself
the shock beyond comprehension
of course to the question "why"
there is no answer
no one to blame
only the deep sorrow
and still the wondering
"What could I have done?"
my sister told me,
"He committed suicide,
he shot himself."
But he was so young,
what could I have done?
paid more attention,
been more loving,
why didn't I see?
The signs were there.
I was too busy
living my life
ignoring the problem
pretending it would
go away
if I just ignored it.
What went through
your mind
at that last moment
of explosion?
Were you relieved
and glad to be
released
or was your last thought
"My God
what have I done?"
Dear God
I felt the wound myself
the shock beyond comprehension
of course to the question "why"
there is no answer
no one to blame
only the deep sorrow
and still the wondering
"What could I have done?"


Ness